!Fird!

Lame Shit.

2011-02-15T02:01:00.001+08:00

my return.

2010-11-10T03:06:00.002+08:00

Today is pretty was a tiring. Had presentation. It went awesome-Ly okay. Didn't expected much of that but i am happy with myself. I realize i am getting lazier by the day. I've got to start changing and pretty much be a better individual. Gotta start working hard. Damn Damn Damn.

Basically this week i am tied up with many activities so I'll see how i will survive.

ok noob shit.

2010-11-09T02:23:00.002+08:00

ok seriously i am a total noob shit.
i have no idea about blogger stats. HAHAHA
what the hell got people view my blog ah?
hahaha thanks ah!

oklah so pretty much tomorrow is going to be a very long day.
presentation ahead!
proper update will be up soon!

Booyah!

2010-11-08T14:13:00.000+08:00

class mendak nak mampos. I am like gonna die soon ah. Tak leh tahan babe! Da ah tido sudah

-- Shaik Firdaus posted this using BlogPress From iPhone

School's out!

2010-10-27T03:31:00.003+08:00

I have just completed my Business proposal for my EAIPJ. I have also completed my Entrepreneurship Form. So eventually i have completed important things to complete. Have to start doing tutorials soon. Project is gonna tough this semester but i pray hard i won't screw it up. I need to score it damn badly. I need it. Well besides that life is kinda okay i guess. I am happy i have got over a couple of life stuff. Time to change.

welcome back.

2010-10-19T00:09:00.003+08:00

I have been very very tired lately. with work and stuff. well today was the first day off school. i had like 3 hours of sleep but i manage to pull through. School was pretty much the expected first day off school.

I don't care much about it. Well honestly i learn a lot about people today. Well i do have respect for some but for some they don't deserve any respect. Most of all, today i realize something. It does not mean that you are clever or you're able to score well, you are a capable leader. Instead you maybe one of the worst leader, self-centered and narcissistic person. and i guess to sum up today, "disappointing". Learn to stick to your words and learn to stand up to people. Pretty much i have no respect for many people.

Well, to be honest i am surprised by the decision that i made. But honestly i am proud of myself. I dare to challenge myself. At the very least i am not those people who "till death do us part". I know what i have signed myself up for. It is gonna be tough. But i shall stay strong for myself. I really hope things will go well.

Well after school was awesome. I think i was like kinda crazy and high due to lack of food. Had Long John, and thanks to Arena and Nasha for accompanying me.

Well let me just wrap this up i wrote this post with full of joy and smile. There was no anger what so ever. No offense to anyone in particular. I am not upset nor am i ranting out. This is kinda like a diary and so yea i have the right to blog about what i want. cheers!!

awesome.

2010-10-10T02:54:00.004+08:00

Today is totally fun day at work! I enjoyed myself.
09-10-10 ended with a smile. It was great.

I really don't want to mess this up this time around. It could be my only chance.
Let's just hope for the best.

welcome in,

2010-10-07T04:58:00.003+08:00

Okay. I cannot sleep. everything don't seem to go well.
Today is not my day. I need a break.
Everything seems wrong.
I am really disappointed.
Oh yea its pay day, and it really didn't help that much
i don't see my balance increasing that much.

What a disappointing day!

hatred.

2010-10-04T16:13:00.004+08:00

Those were the days at suzhou when everything was problem free.

I really feel like removing you from facebook.
I feel like want to remove you out of my life but that is clearly impossible
so what should i do ?
gosh i really hate you!

boo!

2010-09-30T01:39:00.005+08:00

My uncle & aunt 15th Anniversary and their raya open house!

Wah its like a long time since i last blog. haha. lazy ass la.
well basically not much to talk about ah. well except that my results are out. Well basically i was surprised with it. It was totally shocking but then again i am very thankful and damn happy with it. I have one semester left i have to work hard an ensure that i excel really well. This is the last lap. And it is the most important one indeed. A wake up call time. Well i have basically spent most of my time working and nothing much. so yea! well i can see that many of my friends are in relationships. So congrats guys! happy for you all.

my take on it: i would love to be in one too, but then again i guess not now. I am not wiling to go through any of that stuff. Only time will tell.

I am putting that incident aside. I really don't want to think about it. It is really time for me to wake up from all these and start to change before it is too late.

ok bye time! movie-time!

Lesson Learnt,

2010-09-19T22:36:00.003+08:00

Well basically this year raya has been an experience. There were many unpleasant things that happen. Fights, misunderstanding and much more. This, is the second day in a row. well for starters everything that happen is an eye-opener for me. I don't want to get involve in any of these case whatsoever but one thing i learn, its life, mistakes, regret, ego and etc. I just hope for the best and may everything get settle as soon as possible.

In all i believe that there is a wisdom behind everything that happen.

2010-09-18T04:12:00.000+08:00

I really have nothing to blog about but its just that i am bored and want to blog.
ta-da!

OH yea! I am 19!

2010-09-17T04:02:00.002+08:00

oh yea i have officially turned 19. I am very thankful that i was given a chance to live another year. well basically this year was full of sins and mistake. I will take this as a lesson for me to learn from and start changing. that's life!

Well basically i am damn surprise by the overwhelming birthday wishes.
Guys! i really appreciate it alot man!! knowing myself i hate people! you maybe a friend of mine but i may not like you. i am anti-social. i am bad. and if i hate you i really do. don't bother trying to fixed it. but i am grateful and touched by the wishes! it showed me something i've never seen. Well i guess i have to change my attitude and be nicer.

To the 100+++++ people for the wishes, thank you so much guys! i love you guys man! god bless you guys!

Well nothing interesting happen this year but i guess...

Happy Raya!

2010-09-17T03:58:00.002+08:00

Hey all selamat hari raya!
i know i am damn late but then again i was kinda busy. i wanna to wish all the muslim peeps out there that knows me a happy raya! maaf zahir dan batin. hope you people had a great raya. i have yet to start visiting but it will kick off this weekend.

2010-09-09T03:03:00.004+08:00

basically in life,
learn to treat all your friends fairly and nice.
if not, when that one step back occur, then you're realize how lonely you are!

p.s. these are just random thoughts hahaha since i am evil to everyone!!
kwakwakwa!

2010-09-09T02:45:00.001+08:00

okay!
i am the most evil person alive.
i need to learn to be nicer.
and i need to get my life back.
life is just about working for me now!
boo!!!

sept.

2010-09-08T03:27:00.001+08:00

well. basically i don't know what is happening to me in life.
i am just falling apart.
i am drowning somewhere that i don't even recognize.
its time to change.
i need to change.
its still not to late.

If only it came true. it will change everything.

Well.

2010-08-24T02:54:00.003+08:00

Well i am back!!
Final Year Project has officially ended. 3 months past so fast. Many things happen this past 3 months. Mostly fcuk-ed up things. What i conclude from this past 3 months is life is never perfect. For sure, there's something up to spoil everything. So yea i am over this 3 months and now i will be working. Well basically my schedule is not fixed yet so I'm kinda have nothing to do this upcoming week except weekend. Well i am kinda screwed up at worked. (i am f**kin shy!! i dunno why also. i rarely talk. wth is wrong right?) damn it!!!

Sometimes i wonder what else would i lose. i have officially lost everything that is meaningful to me. well i want to be in a relationship but then again ah damn! i don't know! forget it. i hope you're doing fine!

the return.

2010-08-07T00:56:00.003+08:00

every mistake you make is a lesson learn for you. it will make you stronger. but some mistakes are just too hard for you to learn over it. especially when that mistake is circulating around. sometimes you wonder are you cursed with it or things happen for a reason.

well in my case there are tons of these things happening in my life. well this year is not a good year at all for me. but i want to be able to pull through it. well tons of things are circulating around seriously. surprisingly some i just ignore and don't even brood over it. well some is far from even being able to forget about it.

The 3 incident that is affecting me deeply till today.
- the 'she' incident
- July's movie incident
- the everlasting Pain

well precisely in the course of this, i have lost lots of friend. and it continues. i am giving up hope in everything.
nothing can save or change the feeling now.

I should let my mind rest. it really need some rest. see you guys soon.

2010-07-19T23:06:00.002+08:00

I can foresee where this is gonna go. Its gonna be repeat of what happen previously, it could be another huge mistake. But i feel i should make this move. Well, no one will understand cause no one feels what you feel. I have regret many past. To see this fall through again is just not right. But it seems that its the choice that i want to make. I know this is stupid but no one understands it.

Mistake.

2010-07-18T23:58:00.004+08:00

Satu kesilapan mampu mengubah segalanya. Aku terima takdir ini. Aku redha dan pasrah. Aku hanya mampu berdoa yang terbaik dihadapanku.

Changes.

2010-07-18T14:41:00.003+08:00

As time past, people change. Some change for the better, some change for the worst.
I have never took to consideration how much I have change these past month, how bad I have become and how many hearts have I hurt and how many people that I have pissed.

How much you question yourself on why you change, you can never answer it cause the answer lies deep in your heart and you're not able to face it. You change for the worst because of someone or because you can't stand of getting hurt over and over again. But you never realise how the change could affect you and the others.

This week was a total eye-opener on what happen. I have lost everything. I've change to someone who I don't even recognise.

I can't change anything at this point. and it is the worst feeling ever. I am feeling very very down.

One bad incident that change everything.

"I am not able to share everything here. More details here."

Welcome back post (:

2010-07-11T15:09:00.016+08:00

Well, hello to all. been missing for a very long time, haha. Been very very busy this couple months. Started off with fypj, followed by the suzhou fypj trip and now back to singapore. well it had been an amazing month. A month full of joy and excitement.

A month at suzhou was truly amazing. It was such a great and memorable experience, i really and truly enjoyed myself there. I learn more about myself. It was a life-changing experience. I live life peacefully with no stress thinking about life. It was the best getaway. Well now back at singapore, life is not going as plan. It is really bad. I am really falling apart in many different ways.

One again, it is a repeat of the past. I really hope this time it won't turn out the way it did the previous time. I really value you.

Besides that i just need to get away from some stuff, i need to find someone who can understand me very well, i have made new friends who are there for me with their endless care and concern. thanks guys.

Well i just life could be better. I guess its time to go back to my roots. The thing that has been missing for a very long time.

Well here are the 10 photos i feel is the best taken in China.

Number 10

this was a field trip to one of the iconic places at suzhou haha. it was the most amazing pair-up ever. haha. basically all the six above are people who just can't stop taking photos haha. it was one of the best pair-up ever enjoyed it guys!
(Sabri, Zhang Bin, Naren, Zhi How, Germaine and me)

Number 9

this was the trip to hangzhou, the scenery there was awesome. And these to guys are 2 new friends that i made and came to know about. really amazing people.
(Qing Rui, Zhen You, Me)

Number 8

hahaha. let's just let this picture do the talking by itself. the bachelor and the hotstuff.
(hotstuff, sabri, naren, elfy, kenneth, zhen you, firdaus, faizul, zhi how)

Number 7

This picture is at number 7, is because i love it a lot hahaha. its really awesome to just look at it. well i guess the people in it are mostly the fun and amazing people. Awesome people.
(sabri, firdaus, elfy, linda, germaine, kenneth)

Number 6

Going shanghai the first time and hanging out with these guys was not a mistake. I truly enjoyed myself with them. awesome guys. Many funny and memorable incident that happen there is still etched in my mind.
(fadhlan, naren, zaki, elfy, faizul, kenneth, ravina, sabri, firdaus)

Number 5

ONE WORD - THE BEST. love it. love it. love it. should be ranked higher. haha.
(naren, zhi how, germaine, firdaus, sabri)

Number 4

Credit to germaine. a wonderful picture. very nice. which is nicer? picture 1 or 2? hahaha i think i now which is. (zhen you & firdaus VS elfy & kenneth)

Number 3

my girlfriend at shanghai, hahahah awesome laa. hahaha too much thing to talk about this picture. deserve a higher placing actually but difficult ah. i miss my girlfriend. ARGHHHH!!!
(firdaus girlfriend and firdaus)

Number 2

I've said it over and over again. I love this picture. confirm got people irritated by it. i love this picture. so cool ahhh! like the backstreet boys. these guys are awesome, well i don't get to know kenneth and faizul that much. but sabri and elfy are really to awesome guys. amazing friends. if only we had the time to get to know each other better i am sure we can be good friends. best hanging out with you guys! (elfy, faizul, kenneth, sabri, firdaus)

Number 1

Well its first cause of the one who take the photo and the person who jumped. hahahaha. thanks a lot germaine. a very very nice shot. Well its funny how we became friends. haha. i wasn't close to this friend of mine at first. after about 2 weeks then i get to know him. and surprisingly we bonded really really well. we became close friend. haha. i had never found anyone who had similar characteristic like me. awesome. haha. well he is now one of my closest friend and most of all i would like to express my gratitude to him on his advice to me in facing one of my biggest problem here singapore. (it was indeed one of the most sensible advice i receive from a friend) thanks dude
Nice jump shot!!! (firdaus and zhen you)

Looking back, i really miss those days. If we were given a chance to stay there or return which would i have chosen ? The fun life and the easy way out of problem or the tough life facing the problem.

The day after.

2010-07-04T02:39:00.003+08:00

Hello all, i am officially back from china. It has been a great 26 days. Enjoy every part of it. Even though its just a day since i came back I've missed the people i've spend my life with the past 26 days. Really want to meet them up real soon. I will do a proper update soon. Watching Spain game now. See ya peeps soon.

This pic is damn cool!

china part 1.

2010-06-16T02:54:00.008+08:00

hello all. finally i can blog in china.
everything is going fine thankfully. been very busy and tired lately. not much rest. Looking forward to better and intresting week ahead. 2 weeks have past real fast. i am hoping for the better. a picture at China. well i will do a better update soon. damn tired.

New mates, new friends

north korea vs brazil. (brazil to win, north korea to shock them. haha.)

that's life!

2010-06-05T01:34:00.003+08:00

Shaik Firdaus blogged using Nokia E72

Story One

I know of two different person (M) and (L). I consider (M) as my friend meanwhile (L) is far from being a friend of mine. However given the fact that I won't be there for one month, (M) & (L) may possibly be close friends and (L) might actually share my darkest secret with (M). (I really hope this won't happen). I really value (M) as a friend and honestly i don't want to lose (M) as a friend.

Story Two

Seriously, why would someone who don't even know you, judge you and spread things about you? Just because someone told them?

Story Three

I am gonna miss my family.
I am gonna miss my friends.
I am gonna miss my new fypj friends.

Surprisingly knowing people for a week can actually teach you how to appreciate people more.

You can't decide how your life works. If it happens, it will happen. And everything happens for a reason. They will be a positive outcome to it. All i can do is pray to god and hope things work out well and my mind and heart will be peaceful.

Dear god please answer my prayers

2010-06-04T08:49:00.004+08:00

Well in life nothing is perfect. Unfortunately it is not like a play/pause/stop/record button. Once recorded you can rewind and re-recored. But in life that will not happen. You will only hope that what is being recorded in your life won't come and haunt you.

Unfortunately when that happens you just have to face
it like any other challenge and pull through it. It may be the toughest thing in
life but you have to face it. Even though you keep reminding yourself
that in life, everything happens for a reason and there is a positive
outcome to whatever problem you face.

Demoralized. Pain. Hurt. Dissapointed. Regret. Sad.
Not knowing will your friends stay true to you or believe in the other party. One thing for sure i know that god will be by my side.

The end of attachment and start of FYPJ.

2010-06-02T00:14:00.003+08:00

Hello.
It has been a while since i last updated. Attachment has ended and the FYPJ has just started. It has been an amazing experience working at OCBC Bank. I enjoyed every moment of it. Many things I manage to learn from. thankful for all the experience.

Lim Ling/Canice Gan/Lee Peng & Godfrey Soo - thank you so much for the advice and the knowledge that you have shared with me. I will heed the advice given by you all and apply it to my life. really hope we can meet one day soon. hope you guys are having fun working as usual. Thanks for everything.

FYPJ has finally kicked off. Well basically, my prayers came true and my worst fear did not. I am delighted and very thankful indeed. Two days and many happy/funny/enjoyable moments. I am truly enjoying it. Surprisingly i manage to make new friends. hahaha. i am enjoying final year project.

Will be heading to Suzhou next week. I am absolutely gonna miss lots of people. Till then See you guys soon. :)

last day of work.

2010-05-27T10:59:00.002+08:00

Its My Last Day At Work. OCBC Bank!!!!

busy.

2010-05-13T01:45:00.002+08:00

been very busy this week. too many things to do. will update soon.
cheers guys!

boooyah.

2010-05-02T00:13:00.003+08:00

hello everyone.
it has been a while since i last updated my blog. i have been very busy with attachment life. It has been. As always bad things and good things happen at times you will ecstatic with it at times you will just be f-pissed at it. but everything is okay. but i hope i get an appropriate grade for the hard work that i've put in. I really do.

Well there has also been lots of meet-ups. Its great to see my friends even though i am having attachment at the same time. well just yesterday i met all of them, but i want another meet up soon ahahaha. It is fun to be around people that understand you and appreciate you.

Well i have been reading lots of social network stuffs and views lately. All i can say is that everyone has a dark past in his/her life you either pull through it or declare lost. be true to yourself don't give up. Everything happens for a reason.learn to appreciate things (even small things).

Well, on other note i had a convo with Tiff and HQ yesterday. What i learned about myself is: i somehow learn to appreciate everyone more as an individual & i don't mind if people hate me. HAHAHA. serious. but my NEW way of life is "give the person you hate/despise a chance, you might end up liking that person and see yourself as a nicer person"

love ya'all

monday.

2010-04-19T00:39:00.001+08:00

It's Monday!
& no one likes it.
No choice.
Back to work.
SEE YA SOON

attachment.

2010-04-18T02:36:00.009+08:00

Working life is different than school life.
So this is what happen when you're bored.

lazy.

2010-04-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

I am a very very lazy boy.
I am very tired and lazy everyday after work.
I want a break.

back.

2010-04-12T07:50:00.000+08:00

There is many things that you learn or you go through in course of life. And at certain point, you have to let it go. So i guess the same thing happen in my life too. There was this thing that i was a part of. And i have let it go but it seems that everytime there is something that got to do with it, i will still be a part of it. So it was about i really should let it go. And i did it on the day i thought i could have never done it. I am happy and proud of myself for being able to do it. Cheers.

Life at attachment is going great. 5 weeks done. 7 more to go. I hope everything runs smoothly and i'll do a great job.

"It's really sweet to see a couple in love. Its really something nice to see. I can only wonder when would it be mine. hahaha.

okla. bye people off to work. see you guys soon.

2010-03-29T22:22:00.003+08:00

Hello. I am back. once again. its somehow not one of the best or most perfect day but i guess its part of life.

I can't put my past behind me.

So yea putting that aside, work was okay nothing bad happen today. Everything went well, 3 weeks and 1 day have past since i started. well its for sure a learning curve.

Well this is just a story to share. It happen a week ago There was this girl on the train with her boyfriend. She is attractive but she is a "minah". And yea he boyfriend is a "mat". So i guess its a perfect combination. But the thought that ponder my mind is "what if" she is not with him? but she is with a decent guy. Well i have my conclusion to that and i let you guys think bout it.

I am really happy to see a couple standing together happily. but went would be me? i am still not ready, one fact for sure i can't even support myself. I wonder would there ever be girl to make the first move? yea so be it.

I find fergie very sweet in this pic.

I am no longer dumb.

2010-03-24T20:47:00.002+08:00

story one.

Well firstly let me start with the happy new i receive yesterday. The release of the result. I am more than delighted seeing it.
I am very very very thankful :)

For the first time ever i am not dumb! hahahha
and its the first time ever (just this semester result) i am a 3-pointer wahhhh!! pro seh ahhahaha (okay shutup!)

Its not only my effort but the prayers i had, played an important role in me getting this result. I am very thankful :)

First time ever nearly all module lowest B. gosh amazing. =D

On the other note, those who did not perform well. don't give up keep going. I had similar feelings before but don't let it stop you guys k?

story two.

I officially am telling myself to stop getting involve in that 'thing'. Since i choose the path not to continue so why the hell am i being such an extra ? i question myself alot and i came to a decision. No more interference fullstop.

Story three.

I HATE ATTACHMENT!

story four.

If that prayer of mine turns to a reality, its the best thing ever happen in my life

story five.

I learn one new thing. everything that happen is fate.

bored.

2010-03-22T15:31:00.003+08:00

i am at work and i am bored.
Everyone went for their meeting and i am left alone.
Come back guys or i could fall asleep.
Hahaha.
Today is a learning curve.
Hoping for the best

busy.

2010-03-22T01:10:00.003+08:00

Been very busy with attachment.
trying to find time to chill out soon.
i just find these 2 girls attractive.
=D

Attachment Day 6

2010-03-16T00:56:00.002+08:00

Hello all, been very busy lately with attachment. Today I officially am not gonna bitch about work!!! HAHAHAHA! I finally stayed in the office and did some office work. It was great and challenging tho, it was the learning curve and i hope i did not make much mistakes. So far so good la, and i have tons of photos to upload but i am too tired. I am thankful for everything.

The only thing that is bugging me is the past!!

Everything is going well and i hope it will go on like this. to everyone stay positive and you can do it!!

Attachment Day 3

2010-03-10T23:49:00.002+08:00

It is not getting any better. Feelings that i currently have its just not right.
I hope for a better day tomorrow.

The weirdest thing happen. I have this so call "feelings" or "premonition" that i am going to DIE. I hope that it is just some random thoughts. I want to change many of my attitude before i move on. oh god please just let this be some random thoughts.

Ya Allah, tolong panjangkan usiaku dan berilah aku peluang untuk bertaubat. Amin

2nd Day of Attachment

2010-03-10T00:54:00.004+08:00

hello all.
I know i am not allowed to reveal anything about attachment but all i want to say is that i don't like it! It's not that interesting. I am suffering. help me please someone. My leg hurts like hell. I had enough of walking and photo-taking for one day!

I walk from Raffles to Funan
then from Funan to Chinatown
then from Chinatown to SGH!

I am still trying my very very best to do this with a smile.

Attachment Day 1

2010-03-09T00:40:00.003+08:00

Hey all i am back as you know A'levels result was just out days ago so does the attachment posting. I was too busy to update blog cause was enjoying myself last week. Oh ya, back to topic as most of you should have known by now, i am posted to OCBC. First reaction absolute shock. Did'nt not expect it at all since i major in IT. So initially i was thankful. I was posted to the Group CFS: Quality Service Management It sounds intresting and fun. So today was the start of attachment and yea i was posted to another department due to several reasons. I was then posted to Group CFS: Self-Service Franchise based on my knowledge i was recommended by my Course Coordinator.

I fear a lot of things at this moment. I am scared i cannot perform. Help me!!!
I don't want to disappoint myself. Am i really capable? What does this challenge mean? I am stress. Its just the first day Firdaus. Chill!! Help me god.

So yea i have sign an agreement to not reveal anything on my job here so, sorry cannot blog much. At this point i am damn tired and sleepy. See you guys soon!!

Hello.

2010-03-03T01:54:00.010+08:00

(my current handphone - on loan)

This is what happen when you don't know how to check your phone and your phone is spoil!- Its only 3rd March not including 1st & 2nd

Firstly my apologies to all. I am so sorry for not replying your text messages. My phone currently got problem la. Ermm that pic above is only messages i receive today not including the past weekends and monday i am so so so sorry people. I promise will reply you all after i fix my phone!!AHAHAH

Yesterday marks the end of my examination and the end of year 2 (if i pass all my module). So after exams went out. I had the option to follow Jing Ting or the guys they all so i followed the guys to Causeway Point. So sorry Jing Ting will make it up to you. And yea we went there, did some shopping and went to watch "From Paris With Love" and some people thought its a gay movie! who ah?? who ah?? hahahaha. I recommend you all to watch the show its great and nice. straight to the point and there is action! (esp the part when the girl was running. damn hot la!) and also Jonathan Rhys Meyer is damn lucky la to be born with that type of blue eyes. SO after that slack at Mos Burger then chit chat then go back. I then went back home to change before meeting Pam & Sok Lei at Khatib Mac. We talked for like hours from 9pm to 1am i think. haha had fun. gonna miss them since we are all on different paths.

So my plan for this week is going to like this:

Weds - Jerrold Birthday Celebration /Might be going cycling as well

Thurs - Final Year Project Briefing(Suzhou) /School attachment briefing/ Watch movie with some of my classmate / Might be meeting Steph & Tiff/ Clubbing

Friday - (plan to do something special but might change)

Saturday - meet up with some of the people from Business Informatics that is on different path

Sunday - shopping for attachment

and so when monday arrive, it will mark the start of holiday for some while start of attachment for me!!! By the way i have yet to know where i am gonna be posted too. i think given what i heard i might be posted to tuas/jurong/expo or maybe even changi airport. HAHAHAHAH.
isn't that awesome?

damn it. ok la, so i have to admit one week is not enough for me to go for meet ups and all those stuff i need more time and days. So good luck to all during the holidays and good luck to me with my attachment!

indeed!

2010-02-26T01:37:00.001+08:00

The fact that it is small is one thing. The fact that she knows him and he is in that damn school and that damn fu***** course and friends with some son of b****! is another!!
My life will never be at peace. Neither would my mind!

one more to go.

2010-02-25T04:23:00.003+08:00

Two papers down. One more to go.

Software Engineering

Marketing Research : It was okay. Made a few major mistakes. Hope that the results good.

Operating System : It was easier than Marketing Research for me. The tips was definitely helpful(even though not all came out). I hope the paper will pull my grade up.

Software Engineering : have yet to study.(i need motivation)

After the exams i will be preparing myself for attachment. haiz. let's hope for a miracle to take place knowing the fact that i can't get the grade i want upon graduating!

It 4:30am and i am tired. good night!

j.

2010-02-21T03:01:00.006+08:00

I just want to blog about my obsession. Hahaha. Survivor. I can get over it. Especially this new season. I am crazy over it!!! damn me!! This season is honestly amazing. Its just amazing. James sucks! B.Rob rocks to the max!! people might hate him but i am rooting for him this season. And this season have full of hot babes.

I don't know why but this season i can't get my eyes of her. Don't under estimate her!

I like her since the first time she played and till now, i still like her!! (Macam love at first sight gitu ah!! hahahah)

She is amazing she is as fit as a guy! (Sesuai sebagai calon isteri!) hahaha ignore my crap!

Jealous. That was the exact feeling i felt when i saw what you type. I felt down. But i guess that should be what i deserve. I did not want to be in a relationship neither was i ready for meet up nor anything else. I deserve it. Its painful seeing that but its a fact i should face. and so i shall wish you all the best. be happy and don't feel down. I am always here if you need a listening ear. =D

3ooth post holiday edition.

2010-02-19T03:27:00.004+08:00

Hello all i am back!!!
So as some of you know, i am back from my trip to Malacca during the CNY/V-Day period.
In all the trip was indeed a memorable one.

(It was one of a kind. never before happen something like this. haha. ok let me share it with you)

FIRST DAY (click pic for bigger view)

Well the first day we left sg at ard 5.30am to avoid the traffic congestion (i did not sleep that day). So yea we went tuas all the way even tho i am staying at yishun. well it started of well, no jam at tuas but there was a massive traffic jam at johor. so yea we had no choice but to go through it. (hahaha all the while i was sleeping). So we reached Malacca at ard 12 plus 1pm i guess. so yea it was great we checked in. i had to share a room with my parents this time around. (oh ya btw somehow my mood was not that good during this trip i have no idea why also).
So yea then we then head out to Malacca City where mum did her shopping later that night we went to the night market. I SWEAR I LOVE THAT PLACE. I boughts tons of stuff. wallet, watch, shorts and some more. cannot remember. then when to macs and bought dinner (dinner was perfect man!!) hahahah.

SECOND & THIRD DAY (click pic for bigger view)

Had breakfast at the hotel itself then went out to go shopping again. till abt 5pm then head back to the hotel for a swim and hell ya it was awesome and there was also something memorable that happen.

There was this guy in his mid 30s who screamed at 2 mischevious kids who were abt 8 and 9 years old. That guy was swimming and the kids were purposely annoying him and so he shouted "What's your problem?" and everyone, trust me everyone (abt 50 people) in the swimming pool compound was staring at that incident. Trust me eveyone!! He shouted at the top of his voice, to the kids. I was like whats wrong with this guy?? they were just kids?? cmon man! this pool is not yours! no offence how naughty the kid was they don't deserve that you know.

And yea so after swimming we went out for dinner. but not much food places was open at the timeslot we were haunting for food. so we ate nasi lemak at night it was not that bad. So yea i went up first to the room while my aunt and mum stayed below. So as i was walking along the corridor heading to my room i hear screaming from one room. And several seconds later one guy came out from another room and look at me and said stop screaming. I was WTF it was not me idiot! (Trust me after that happen i was like this hotel seriously have people with patience problem!) So next morning had breakfast then check out then head back to sg. otw back we stop at this hypermarket where i bought some more stuff again haha. it was great and the food there was awesome. Oh ya i forgot to say that on the second day after my breakfast there was like this lion dance thing there. it was great to watch. but the hotel sucks cause got no wi-fi (only had broadband thing which i shld have research earlier and bring my laptop).So yea after the hypermarket stop we head back to sg. and yes. sleeping time babyyy ahaha so i was sleeping. then we stopped at Johor for dinner. We use the Wi-fi of the restaturant (Singgah Selalu) to check the traffic back to sg.
It was damn bad.

SO after dinner (Ard 12am) we park the car ard nearby for my dad to sleep in the car for a while as my dad was exhausted. ended up i fall asleep. hahaha. i am useless. i know. hahaha.
we woked up at ard 3am. and yea we headed back to sg with no traffic problem.

So indeed it was a memorable trip. Ever since that day i have been sleepy every hour and lazy and tired. Exams coming up and i am not stdying!! i need motivation!!

p.s. Han Jun sorry could'nt go for the gathering. :(
How i wished i went.

and there goes 300th post and counting!!
nights guys!
(:

Me

2010-02-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

Firdaus is currently at Malacca Macs! I am having a great time here at malaysia. But hotel got no wi-fi arghhh!!!! Have a great valentine's day guys!

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conclusion.

2010-02-13T04:48:00.003+08:00

Well basically the last monday to friday was presentation
week so was busy with presentation.

Wednesday was IT Innovation Project presentation

In all i have to say congrats to my team-mates for the effort
that you've guys have put in. It has been amazing working
with you guys ever since year 1 semester 2. I guess everyone
in the class or most of you have know that i don't plan on
staying in the same group next semester. partially is because
of the fact that i want to know my capabilites of working
with others. It will benefit me more in the future if i make
this decision. So yea i will be planning on changing group in
Year 3 Sem 2. So a little credit to you guys

Chloe - You are a good programmer. In my opinion, if you
manage your time wisely i am sure you will excel well in your
project. I am very sure you will excel like how you nearly
made it to the distinction presentation in Year 1 Sem 2.
Good luck to you

Christine - You have to believe in yourself and mostly put
in the effort cause if you at least try i am very sure you
are able to do it! Just don't give up!

Xiao Jing - You need to expose yourself more. Talk to more
people and learn from them the different things and i am sure
you will succeed!!

Well that is precisely all for IT Innovation Project. I would also like to apologize for the any misunderstanding and inconveniences that has occur. It's definite to have misunderstanding in group project. However i enjoyed ever minute of it!

Thursday was Business Communication

It was dissapointing performance. I expected more from
myself. Very dissapointed with myself. But i guess my
expectation of myself was very very high that i could not
meet it. But everyone else said i did well.

So yea. It was also the last day of this semester as of after
that day, we will all go for our attachment in our own ways.
So that marks the separation. I wish you all the best in
everything you guys do!

And on other side of things i am leaving to Malacca for
holiday in about an hour time? I am very tired and sleepy. So
to all happy holidays!! and have a great holiday!!

2010-02-11T03:03:00.000+08:00

business communication in 4 hours!

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o.

2010-02-10T01:50:00.005+08:00

In 5 hours time, i will be in school with my final presentation. At this point i can only say that, the stake are raise. Seeing the other classes present today it seems impossible for us to raise or meet that. Being the last and only class to present later do have their disadvantages. Nonetheless, you got to believe in yourself. So good luck my fellow classmate. Nail the presentation people! Show your system like you've never shown before! good luck =D

I so love my formal wear that I am wearing tomorrow.

Those who wants to see the not so over the top presentation tomorrow, it will be held at CL7 at 9:00am. see ya there!

n.

2010-02-09T04:34:00.002+08:00

I've just completed doing many stuff. Knocking off to bed soon. Trust me i totally regret choosing this topic! This is my topic about.

You are a crew supervisor of McDonna, a fast food restaurant. While on duty, you received feedback from some concerned parents who felt that fast food is too high in fat, sugar and salt content; and is therefore unhealthy. Some even mentioned that they try not to eat too often at fast food restaurants. You feel that to improve patronage, the company should educate consumers that fast food is not necessarily unhealthy. You decide to bring this up during the next monthly meeting with the other supervisors and restaurant manager. Prepare an appropriate presentation to convince them of the need for such an education campaign and how it can be mounted.

I look fat. and i hate it. let's hit the gym people. anyone want to join??

the word of the day.
son of a bitch.

m.

2010-02-08T03:19:00.005+08:00

It sad that people do change
But some people don't
You want that 2nd chance
But not everyone wants to give you that 2nd chance

I am damn tired. past two days has not been progressive enough. i am useless!

If you have nothing to do, watch
this video. Rihanna looks damn hot! But she her singing could have been better.

it's coming

2010-02-06T01:24:00.006+08:00

(picture above was taken during IT Innovation damn informal presentation on week 5 i think!)

IT Innovation project was today. Project submitted but there some bugs that we need to solve left. Report submission done. Power point slide i am gonna do later. This week schedule

Monday - Debugs
Tuesday - Debugs / Software Engineering Revision tutorial
Wednesday - IT Innovation Project Final Presentation
Thursday - Business Communication 3 Presentation
Friday - Done with presentation!

So which means most likely after next week, i would be out partying and enjoying myself and also go holiday and clubbing!! before preparing for exams.

So the minute exams are over, i will be going for attachment followed by fypj (final-year project) then finally study.

Oh ya today i receive an unknown call from a lady who told me that there is a freelance job for me. I have no idea who she was and also i have no idea which company was she was (but she said under SHA) and she said i was recommended by someone its so customer-relationship management thingyy. Unfortunately i won't be able to make it for the interview tomorrow which is held at Eunos. (If it is really under the Singapore Hotel Association, i would regret for sure.)

i guess i really can't forget my past. most of all i see is that many dark and suffering years ahead. my future is ruin just because of my past. if only i could....

i want to feel better. please help me feel better guys.

Marketing research lecture.

2010-02-04T13:27:00.000+08:00

I am now having marketing research revision lecture and I am not paying attention. I am damn bored. I want to so other stuff. Today did not start of good and it continues not to get any better. Let's hope for a better ending. Cheers people!

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2010-02-03T00:50:00.002+08:00

I am officially busy that's why this place seems like its dead. oh ya so updates will come shortly after this 2 weeks.
trust me. final project seems to get to everyone nerve. I have completed mine and left with the integration to see if it works or not. ok besides that good luck to all. Let me share this with you guys. doing a group work, there will always be times where you feel like you hate your group or whatsoever so just hang in there and aim for your final goal. I know its stressing but you can do it!!! (same goes for my team)

THREE PEOPLE SAID THAT I'VE PUT ON WEIGHT.
damn man i regret calling people fat this what i get in return as of today i am determine to lose weight. I can see that my cheeks has grown just the body left. Fats are growing at the wrong places.
First round : stop eating
Second round : start fasting
Third round : start exercising
then we shall se if there is any lost. When my dad was my age he was only 48kg at most.
gym anyone???

and i seem to have some teeth problem. First i really want braces and next i notice a division of white color on one of my teeth. oh god please dont make this bad.(not decay!) damn man! (gosh i think i am psychologically ill. all i care about is how i look!!)

i should end here. basically i just want to say don't take anything for granted. (life/love/cash/friendship/health)

2010-02-01T13:10:00.001+08:00

leong seng is a total double noob! you bastard! kwakwakwa

damn cool!

2010-01-29T02:14:00.000+08:00

Its damn cool to update my blog using my blackberry :D

2010-01-27T02:04:00.000+08:00

hello everyone.hope everyone is doing great. suprising i am. i survived the first 2 days of one of the toughest week. looking forward for the other 3 days. i am thankful and grateful of the many good things that happen the past 2 days. those unpleasent moments i shall put it as a learning curve.

Honestly speaking, its the usual matter that is pulling me down. Its hard to go through with. For sure i feel down when i here people talk about it. I just have to be strong for myself. I have to put these issues aside and focus on my life. Everyone makes mistake, its a fact that everyone will not forgive nor forget it but to those who do, bless you!! to those who don't just picture if something worst than that happen to you.

Back to school, 2 modules done!!! 5 left.
By week 17 another 2 down. then this means that, partayyy time. hahaaha
Nothing much to talk about actually.
But i wonder why people who don't know you as a person talk about you?? wierd!

Its hard when you know you can't go on life the way you wish you could just because of a mistake you made.

i hope for a better life. (:

cheers everyone!

if only my sole wish came true
everything would have been perfect

Hectic week ahead!

2010-01-25T03:48:00.003+08:00

A short post.
I am rushing to bed.
Got to wake up early tomorrow.
And i have not bath yet. damn.
what time am i gonna sleep?

This week schedule.

Monday - Marketing Research Presentation/ XML & Web Services Quiz/ XML & Web Services Practical Test

Tuesday - Software Engineering Presentation/ Mobile Application Practical Test

Wednesday - Software Engineering Submission/ Meeting with School Board

Thursday - IT Innovation Project

Friday - Preparation For Next Monday

So i can for see that I'll be dead tired by the end of the week.
so see you people soon
and good luck with everything.

k.

2010-01-20T01:58:00.003+08:00

Today was a much better day. i am feeling better by the day. it has not been easy though. i guess school and projects and datelines and assignments has been keeping me busy enough to keep mind of things. thankfully. i am grateful life has been better and i hope that it will be much better.

yesterday was dad's birthday. let the pics say it all.
(click to view larger screen)

and off track pict.

i am just contented with the current situation. i really hope it stays this way. and so do i. got to knock off to bed soon.

and on a total different thing. i was shortlisted for the overseas final year project. i was given the chance to go to Suzhou (China). surprise and thankful despite given the different cicumstances. just one more shortlisting round to go!

if only my sole wish came true
everything would have been perfect

Happy birthday dad!

2010-01-19T02:45:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday dad! Celebrated dad's birthday. Pics will be up soon.

I am feeling better. But I hope to feel alot better.
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suffer.

2010-01-17T02:35:00.002+08:00

everyone has a past that they wish to forget about or for the fact just leave it away but some people don't understand that. they just want you to suffer with your past mistake. so they will keep talking about it and make you suffer.

say it all you want if it makes you happy. but do remember that what goes around comes around. i don't wish to see anyone suffer what like what i do, but if you find humiliating me is fun and you won't realise it than i am sorry but i will hope for karma!

i have suffer alot more than everyone else out there.if anyone out there who feels that your life is falling apart. trust me mine is worst. my teenage life is ruin and i can't fix it back and if it continues that way so does my future.

sejak kebelakangan ini aku sedar yang aku sedang lalui banyak sangat dugaan dan cabaran. apakah tanda semua ini? kenapa semua ini berlaku serentak? kata orang semua yang berlaku ada hikmahnya! but i have yet to feel it. :(

thank you so much tiff for hearing me out and the advice. i appreciate it alot will try my best to follow it. and tk you yk for that advice will try to do it.

If only my sole wish came true
everything would have been perfect

l.

2010-01-13T03:27:00.000+08:00

Something happen to me that made me wonder.

The first time i know that "someone",
i did not have that so-call good impression on that "someone".
Maybe because of the situation at that time?
Once i ever felt that the two of us can never connect or even talk to each other.

At this point things change. I am estatic it does. Very grateful. I see myself change and most of all i manage to prove myself wrong. that "someone" is really nice person. it would have been a waste to know that person as a friend.

When you are at a higher level you tend to see people differently and when you're at a much lower level you won't have any natural negative views on others.

happy.grateful.estatic.lets hope things get even better (:

going to knock off to bed. sengp test tml (:
mood: happy
song of the day: suatu masa

If only my sole wish came true
everything would have been perfect.

k.

2010-01-12T00:20:00.003+08:00

I swear i am giving up at this point
bye2. 30% i am too exhausted. need rest.
brain not functioning so does everything else.
life just can't get any better!
someone cheer me up pls!

j.

2010-01-11T03:34:00.004+08:00

i told LS that i am putting this up here. hahaha.
wahhh thankss ahhh. i am so touched!
okay. clearly i am damn bored now. hais. school is nothing fun at all.

basically there is many things in my mind. one fact is i've have made many wrong choices. when will i ever made the right choice. dissapointed. hurting. if only i can rewind and start life all over. haiz.

to conclude how my last three days was take alot at the pic below it says it all (:

I don't believe that my face alot seh!!! ahhaha
love the photo (:

If only my sole wish came true
everything would have been perfect.

i.

2010-01-09T04:10:00.002+08:00

open house 2nd day was not that bad.
i spend most of the time at booth talking to juniors.
hahaha. and it was shocking to see you!

The thing that made me damn! damn! happy was....
some very nice friend of mine thought i really do have colored eyes
wah damn touched la!!!! happy laaa!!!!
hahaha. thanks arrrr tiff, wei jun and richard and some of you guys.
overall i enjoyed the 2nd day.
tml will officially the last day!!

it's amazing sometimes given the circumstances
that you could actually talk to some people so easily.
my advice-
"value the new friendship you have
and never hurt your old friendship by doing something stupid"

bye-bye off to bed!

I.

2010-01-07T02:15:00.003+08:00

Seriouslly! WTF-la! got to submit
Online-resume.
Does it cross your mind that student have duty
during the open house?
Seriouslyy!
thanks tiff!
the link you gave safe my life!

I will be out with my duty at NYP open house on thurs, fri and sat.
All the timeslot la(easier said) at School of Information Technology.
Do fine me there!

h.

2010-01-05T02:18:00.002+08:00

My all time favourite show is finally back after the break. Desperate Housewives Season 6 Episode 11 is back.

It was clearly, one of the best episodes i've ever watched. The story line was superb. basically, people perception of desperate housewives is that is just a drama series but if you guys really keep up to it, its just not a drama. there is a message that they are trying to send to us in the show.
Once again, today's episode, was all about the path of life you choose. what if i choose to do this instead of this?
how would have life been? would it had been better? or would it be worst? would there be something for me to learn from? or nothing? would it be suffering or full of joy?

Most of all it was emphasizing on being grateful with what you have. Honestly, i am rarely grateful of what i have. Its not that i want more but i want totally different thing.

Reflecting to myself

What if i had not make that mistake? maybe i would have made a much bigger mistake in life? or maybe i will in the worst condition that i could have been.

or

What if i had not make that mistake would'nt life be better?
would'nt i be at ease and have a much better future? nothing to be afraid of and nothing to regret.

In both cases there will be something that would have made me stronger. but i choose neither the path.

I have made that mistake. i regret it. i am embarrassed thinking of it. i can't change it. but i can change my future. right now its all about what lies in front of me.
I need to think carefully before making that choice. so as there won't be any regrets and i learn to be grateful.

night guys!

My heart is totally not at ease
I can't sleep.
haiz.

2010-01-04T02:57:00.003+08:00

I officially have the most f***-ed up life!
If this is how i am treated then i guess
everything should end now.
Its better ending it now then later!
You just screw my life up!!
I just need my mind and heart to be at ease real soon.

Back to school tml!

Clubbing pic!
I need the one leong seng took!!

I guess this retribution.
In a way or another
its god message
for me to stop doing
the sin that i am doing

holiday/clubbing

2010-01-03T05:44:00.009+08:00

I am back from clubbing babyyyy!!had fun enjoyed myself. wanna go there real soon again. organise aggain ahh leong seng?? you did a successful event this time around, so thumbs up to you!

I clearly saw you at st. james powerhouse! What the f*** were you thinking. just stop it please. please know your boundaries. I admit i am not an angel but i do know mine. so please! just stop it. You don't see it but i do. you are just making yourself suffer! I'll pray that you come back to the right path before its too late.

pics of clubbing will be up soon!

holiday

Like i promise before. Holiday updates.
Holiday was fun but unfortunately it was short i had extreme fun. swimming was awesome love it alot. i really want to swim more. besides that i so lovee the mirror in the hotel laa.
i've told my parents i want one like that in my room!!

hahaha
let the pics do the talking
(there is actually more but i choose the best and edit it/click on thumbnail for bigger view)

Memorable holiday (:

I realise that i don't have much malay friends now?
wthell is wrong with me?
I just wanna fix this.
its damn painful to go through this.

what i saw at the club just now made this feeling
of mine turn to even worst
I'm curse!

the song ""pengharapan ini" suits what i am feeling

HappyNewYear!!!

2010-01-02T13:35:00.002+08:00

Happy 2010 guys, so 2009 has past and there were many interesting/fun/unforgettable/painful/hurting/regrets/sad/happy moments that happen. So I've actually decided to do a recap of the most exciting conversation that i had in 2009 that i could never forget.

(i cannot remember the exact phrase but i think the structure is something like this)

She said: "Firdaus, if you are standing beside a guy who you yourself feel that, that guy is better looking than you, you will give him the face that you despise him! even though he smile at you and talk to you. why arr???"

My answer: "never once in my life have i ever done that"

She replied: "u jealous ahh?"

My answer: "HELL NO!!!"

So let me conclude it this way, i am not arrogant, neither am i jealous of someone else who i feel is better looking than myself. If you are good looking, yes i will say "yes you are" so yea. I am not some guys who are loser and who can't admit facts ya!!!

kwakwakwa!!

2009 was a year i somehow feel I change in the way i think. It may not be the most matured way, but somehow yes.

i've lost many things this year. To gain it back is impossible. I told myself many times to fixed it! but i can't so i guess i just got to start afresh find new friends and new people to go on with life.

I am bored at this moment that is the reason why i am writing this post. later tonight i will post about my two days/one night vacation. And finally i am going clubbing in my term break!!

Jb

2009-12-31T13:48:00.000+08:00

Going back to Singapore now. Enjoy my stay here. And the wifi and MIRROR!!!! Will update more later by hotel!

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At Johor baharu

2009-12-31T00:17:00.000+08:00

Hello all I am now at the zon Johor baharu. It's a short holiday here. A great and tiring day despite the fact that I FAILED my RTT. Gahahhaa I will upate back when I reach jb tml bye people!!!

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omg.

2009-12-30T07:45:00.002+08:00

My Riding Theory Test is actually at 10:30am and ~~not 10:00am~~. I am dead.
My parents will be damn mad with me now. How is that for a start? Woke up early and found out that its useless cause the test start later! I had not study. okla at least i can use the time to study.The Revision RTT will kick of only at 9:15am. So till then you will here from me. byes!

and ya best wishes again to me k?

g.

2009-12-30T02:24:00.003+08:00

happy birthday nur nadiah.

crap!!!!
my Riding Theory Test, is on tml and i am screwed.
I never study. I cannot remember anything.. die-la!

i know you people are all very nice right? so dont't laugh and instead pray that i pass tml's test!
kwakwakwa.

I am in love with beyonce!!! awww!! sweet righhTTTT!!!! hahahahha

I am sorry i was not able to meet you. but i heard about what happen. I am really sorry to hear about it. my advise to you
is that don't listen to others. ask for an apology. you can fix this. i am sure.
anything call me k?
ATIAL

i am so in loveee with youu!!!!

f.

2009-12-29T04:29:00.001+08:00

I have to say this Chelsea win was damn like shit la!
If only the game could ended in the first 5 mins hahaha!

Besides that, the own goal was super kesian la! hahaha
I pity that guy! hahahaha

Okay so today i was down with crappy stuff! I still have'nt stdy for my RTT. die-la

Thank you so much for your comment on that story
That was written by me not i got it from the net
haha. it was purely my thoughts

i have thoughts of writing short stories but not now
haha busy with life. hahha. nonetheless it was nice of you to comment. thanks ya! will update u if i do write some more :)

Sometimes the people you never meet before ended up being closer to you!

e.

2009-12-28T02:57:00.003+08:00

Hello!!
It's been a week since holidays has kicked off!!
fun has yet to come hahaha!

One fact for sure, i have not study. i have not done any homework =D

I am looking forward to this week events. Its going to be a fun week!!!
And i just discover that there is an application on iPod Touch that can actually update blogger! hahaha. (my prev post was made from there)

At this moment I am damn sleepy, but i have to wait for my dad to reach home cause he wants me to transfer his contacts to his new iPhone.(He sold his old one!). He is also picking up my sister who happen to be at the indoor stadium earlier today, watching Singapore Idol! damn la! all because of this i cannot get the sleep i want. Oh ya talking bout SI, Sylvia was awesome la! Was supporting her but that guy was not that bad too! so ya well deserved. Congrats. One thing for sure i got this instinct whereby if there happen to be a fourth season, trust me no malay will get in the TOP 12. kwakwakwakwakwa!

On the other note. Damn nowadays they take anyone to be a model. No offense to anyone but just a thought that me and my friends shared.

It has been great knowing you
I am going to miss it when you are gone

Happy holidays!

2009-12-25T05:11:00.000+08:00

To was such an awesome day. Never in a million years I thought I would bump into you. I was thankful. It was fate. Damn happy like a dream come true. Happy holidays guys.

The word of the day- "TS"

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d.

2009-12-24T00:43:00.003+08:00

3 acts. 3 stories. 3 life.

1st.
In life, you may not spend much time thinking but you spend a lot more talking. If this happen, you for sure face one fact that is you never think before you say. until that one occasion where you make the crucial mistake. It may be your first but what if its a point where regrets is useless? a situation where you can't change what is done? you've hurt the other party and your relationship is gone. What's there left to do?

2nd.
In life, there may be many things that you badly want but there will be that one and only wish where if it comes true, you will stop asking for others. you work hard for it, you do everything you can to get it and put in effort day and night to just get it. but what if its not meant to have it? what's there left to do?

3rd.
In life, there are people who wants their dream fantasy to come true. they live life with their fantasy by them even when they living to their daily routine. are they crazy? are they mentally-ill? i guess not. maybe in this world they suffer, live with pain and live with regret and only in their dream life they can get rid of all this. they wish they can swop the life but will that ever happen in reality? and what's left to do?

In all the 3 stories there is one thing that they share in common, that is hope. you hope you can mend that mistake/ you hope after all you've done you will get it/ you hope you can swop reality and fantasy.

There are people living this way. and still going on in life this way. hope is the thing that keep them staying alive. to those who faces the same thing but gave up cause their hope is gone, they live a meaningless life.

stay strong,
cause when you reach a point
where you want to give up,
that is where your hope
all these while
is coming to reality
cheers!

c.

2009-12-19T05:46:00.001+08:00

Hell ya!! Holdys kick off today!!!
However the fact is this holdy won't be a good one to many stuff needs to be accomplished.
On other note. Life is getting better.

I should really start planned out what is should do during the holdys. Should have fun and study(high chances i won't do this haha)

On a totally different note, I came to know about Singapore victorious win in the SEA Games the 4X100m mens relay. The team of Gary Yeo, Elfi Mustapa, Cheng Wei and Muhammad Amirudin managed to clock in at a time of 39.82 sec and won silver.

It was such an amazing effort by them. The time clocked in was damn power la! Amazing laa!! I am damn amazed by these group of Singaporean runners. Especially the run by Elfi Mustapa was damn amazing!!! I still remember the last time when Singapore won the 4X100m in the SEA Games. It was before Hamkah Afik become a coach.

Looking at this really make me feel the deep regret of not continuing running as a CCA. I regret choosing other sports ahead of athletics. The fact that i never stay on doing sport as of now is also a stupid mistake that i've made. When i looked at the medals i've won in my school days i somehow feel i should not stop doing sports but i guess its too late.

Okay. i need my sleep now good night.

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2009-12-15T17:02:00.001+08:00

she is damn gorgeous!

b.

2009-12-15T13:13:00.004+08:00

feeling better now. =D

not getting any better.

2009-12-15T13:13:00.003+08:00

my mind is still not ease by what happen. basically by the accident that happen to 2 young souls. I may not know them but the story is devastating enough. plus reading today newspaper did not make me feel any better. adding to that i read hanis blog and i just came to know an old ex-pri school mate of mine has passed away. i may not recall who he is at this point but for certain, when its time for you to passed on, its time.

al fatihah to all the 3 of them.

should i?

2009-12-15T02:45:00.002+08:00

I was on the net when i came to know about something and so i surfed the net and look for that article and my heart dropped.

It really does bring out fear in me. no words are able to describe what i am feeling at this point. i don't even think i am able to sleep. shocked. should i ride? what should i do? i feel like stopping now. i feel like giving up on riding.

Life is short. You either live it the positive or the negative way.

on the other note

its the only thing that can fix my life and the only think i can't have. will i ever get it? i assume never.

b.

2009-12-14T02:30:00.007+08:00

I've been trying to recall your face. reason being? i have no idea why. who are you? and why do i feel that if i can recall you something can change?

one more week of school and one more year of school!
counting down to it!!

i hope to recall who you truly are.

a.

2009-12-12T03:49:00.003+08:00

just one more week.
and school is over.
yea!! i am loving it.
honestly speaking i plan on skipping some lesson next week to get my sleep!
its gonna amazing.

i need work.
i need money.
i need you.

read this

mungkin ada.
cahaya.
ku pasti akan ada bahagia.
di penghujung jalan penuh resah.

biar pun penuh duka.
biar pun penuh lara.
cinta ini milikku akirnya.

test.

2009-12-09T07:35:00.003+08:00

i am gonna seat for SENGP quiz in 2 hours time
and honestly i am not prepared. lets just hope it comes out simple and attainable.
i feel very tired and sleepy.
i also feel scared of an unplanned incident that can affect my life.
oh dear god pls save me.

welcome.

2009-12-08T01:52:00.002+08:00

hello! i am back..

i somehow use part of my time just now to read my previous post. and i notice many spelling errors. Sorry for that!! okay so basically i just want blog and add on about life.

nothing new. except i bought a new gadget. my sister's psp. and i bought it at a very reasonable price. yay!!

i really need to start studying. the interest is not there. but effort has to be there. so i really hope i can start studying soon.

i really don't know what i want. i don't know why am i feeling this way. and i agree that sometimes the biggest lie is saying you don't care.

2009-12-04T03:03:00.000+08:00

Intimidated.

2009-12-03T02:07:00.005+08:00

once again. i am too tired to do a full post. so just to keep it short

-I've cleaned up my room.(its super ~~need~~ neat now)
-I have not study for next weeks test.
-I just completed Business Communication Resume & Cover Letter 10 mins ago.
-I am very lazy.
-My Personal Mentor did not answer my phone call!!! (and i was pissed cause my attendance drop. warning letter!!)
-I passed my RTTT (moving to RTT & prac)

tml. 8am. Son of a b***H! bye!!!

b.

2009-11-30T23:14:00.001+08:00

I'm out, will be back soon. Will update real soon.

2009-11-26T02:17:00.004+08:00

Hello guys!
It 2:20am. I have not study my Operating System yet. & tml is the paper.
screwed up.

I just completed my cover letter for business communication

I've completed my Riding Theory Lesson! Now its time for the trial test!!

I manage to watch Singapore Idol results show just now and I just want to say that Farhan Shah has an amazing voice!! I don't know why people don't like. Got the bandboy voice! How i wish i can sing like that! arghh!!

Knocking off to bed real soon. Extremely tired. Nights guys!

Morning.

2009-11-25T09:05:00.002+08:00

Hello ALL.
A very Good Monrning to all of you!
I am paying attention in class and studying at this very moment

break.

2009-11-20T02:16:00.002+08:00

I went shopping for my stuff just now. I just realize that i spend over 100 bucks this month. crap. got to stop spending. as of now i am very tired. i am very sleepy. i want to do something but i can't and it is making me sad.

Before you do something, think carefully.

i want to make new friends. (:

Sleepy.

2009-11-19T10:38:00.002+08:00

I am very very very sleepy
and very very tired
my eyes in pain!!
Mr ong cannot stop talking arghh!!

Bla.

2009-11-18T23:42:00.002+08:00

Its not your luck!
However i am sure that you friends are proud of you
so don't give up.
Keep on going.
Jia you!!!

Nothing to blog. bored.

its you!

2009-11-18T00:52:00.006+08:00

Its been a while since i last blog. I've been very very busy with life lately. Many things happen that i want to share about but i can no longer remember. basically i wanna share one event in particular that was fun attending. It was camp eagle i really had fun there and learn many things. Appreciate the invitation alot. Mostly thanks to Stephanie and Zhien Yi for the invite i truly appreciate it.

Sometimes, when you try so hard to be the best person there or even try to like everyone it is never possible. Its really really hard when you try your very best to fit in but you always feel on the outs.

And when you try your very best to figure out is it you? your attitude or whats causing this to happen? You wll never be able to understand.

I know that they don't or should i phrase it as never put me aside. But its just hard when i am the one who feel that way. I never blame you guys but just the situation.

so basically apology from me to my mates.

Sometimes letting what you feel out may make you feel better but it might make the situation or people arounf you feel worst.

Yea!!

2009-11-07T00:35:00.003+08:00

I had a wonderful day! Thanks Pamela & Sok Lei. =D